I am presently in the university of keffi studying linguistics,when i got admitted i wanted to leave home to stay in the hostel she objected so much that when i insisted it led to physical abuse,she said i wanted to go to the hostel to be corrupt,so everyday i wait on her for transport,she expects me to trek the distance because during her time she trekked too,any book were requested to buy and i mention it to her,she calls me a thief.
I tried to get a job to combine with school and assist me,she rained insults on me called me ungrateful,she says if i want a job i should leave her house,its not like i can even get a professional job all i have is my secondary school certificate. Throughout upper week and last i have not checked into school because she says i am draining her, this is someone that refused i should stay in the hostel,the distance between school and home is about 45minutes by cab,how am i suppose to trek and meet up and even understand anything in class.
Same last week i had my monthly flow and she refused to give me money for a pad even though i knew she had it. She let me use handkerchief and i dripped all over. At this point i am in tears,i can't keep on anymore and if i start with my dad it is another long story. I am truly tired of life,i used to read stories of people that commit suicide and curse their dead bodies but now i am so tempted because life is less than exciting.
Won't God forgive me because I can't anymore.
What of ur dad? What offer older siblings? Well darling, in as much as I feel your pain cos I cam imagine discrimination amongst siblings, it can never be that bad. Suicide isn't an option and u know why, U'd go straight to hell and d devil will frustrate you some more.If u are a Christian, pray about it, try to speak with her like mother and daughter, if worse comes to worse, speak to ur pastor in confidence. And above all, keep loving her even when it feels the hardest. This should ve a motivation to u to work hard, get done with your studies and do yourself proud. Become something that Noone will have an option than to be proud of u. That's what obstacles are for. Believe me, in 5yrs or less, you'll smile over and we will be here to rejoice with u. Keep being strong darling
ReplyDeleteI don't even wanna start with mine! Bin thru hell! And I'm still very strong! Suicide is not an option trust me!
DeleteI just love you SG. Best advice. Stick to this poster
DeleteDon't give up. It's just a phase in your life and it will pass, it's a delicate matter involving your mum. I can say lil or nothing my dear. There's light at the end of every tunnel, God will send your helper to you and you shall glorify his name. And if there's another way you want BV's to contribute, I'll gladly help. God be with you and let your mum have a change of heart towards you. Stay blessed.
DeleteIf you can send your details to emeh..i can be sending you monthly allowance till things get better in your home..it is well
DeleteMayan yarns...
It is well with you dear Poster
DeleteGod won't forgive u some people go through worse u will know that if u read other people's stories u have to hold ur head up and pray to God for intervention on no condition will u take ur life suffer on earth and suffer In after life too
ReplyDeleteI pray that God gives you enough grace to see you through. He will never abandon nor forsake you. Be good, pray and trust in God. Suicide is not an option cos you need to be alive to succeed and tell your story.
DeleteKeep hope alive. #Hugs.
Babe, I've bin thru worse, I can relate, my mum never gave me money for pad, was always using cloth or handkerchief, whenever I saved money my mum would spend everything, when I got admission to school, my mum didn't pay my fees, I had to struggle ( borrowed money from someone and I used it for business) you don't wanna know how many times I cried myself to sleep, when I wanted to give up. I'm still n school and she's not contributed a dime, she doesn't even care how I feed. And whenever I ask her for money she keeps telling me that she doesn't have. And she's always traveling out of the country, USA, dubai for business! One time she collected money from me and she held back my money, I had to threaten her. So swity you're not alone, please don't give up!
ReplyDeleteHmm we are plenty 4 this matta! Cnt tell u mine oo but I can tell u that if u stay focused n work hard 4 yoself. ...u end up being the favourite. Now, my mom calls me before she does anything, I hv suddenly become too important I sometimes pinch maself thinking its dream.
DeleteIt is well with u poster and the rest of us *winks:)
Awwww Belinda
DeleteNo suicide please! To even think I was gona suggest tht u get a part time job 2 ease yo burden (then I saw tht u already tried tht 1...), dnt kno wat 2 say. Hv tried talking 2 someone in yo family tht she listens 2?
ReplyDeleteIt is God that can help u, so be more prayerful than u hv ever bn in yo life, be strong 4 yoself and make sure u pass in schl.
*um tempted 2 say maybe u're nt hwr daughter or u're nt yo father's daughter...but pretend u ddnt c this 1.
Please don't commit suicide it not an option...Parent are monopolistic they feel they brought us to the world and they can treat us as they wish.,People who are parent here please don't provoke your child to wrath it a big sin ..,My word of motivation is that you continue to do the right thing don't mind the negative word from her it a gear to take you to the next level...God is with you be strong -Pst.Chekeleke
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DeleteBabe,suicide is not an answer.i bet u hv friends dat stay in the hostel or off-K jus go nd squat wit dem.since you hv a job u can provide for some of ur tinz.When u nid more money u could ask ur siblings or ur dad.Jus be strong dear,i bet God has plans for u and de devil is trying to slow u down
ReplyDeletePls read again, she tried getting a job...see the 3rd paragraph, then come bck n comment on d new info.
DeleteI could give you on how to
ReplyDeletenever give up, is to remind you to always be
passionate about #everything you want to do
and this way, it will be much easier for you to
be successful in what you wish to accomplish.
If you put a lot of passion in all the #things
you do, this will come back to you and your
efforts will be rewarded by reaching your
goals. You will even be able to move
mountains! Remember that overcoming some
important obstacles is part of your daily
schedule if you really love what you’re doing.
If you never give up, you will always be able
to come back again and again until your
dream will come true....please don't tryna commit sucide no forgiveness for that, and I also pray that God should touch your moms heart
God won't forgive you if you kill yourself! Cos there are like a thousand and one people out there who doesn't have a common roof over their heads, you wey get roof sef should thank God all the same!!
ReplyDeleteLet me tell you one thing, there's absolutely nothing in this world that prayer can't solve...thats a fact!! Do not hate her, continue showing her love and praying for her... I believe she will change!
In the meantime look for someone to borrow to at least be going to school and maybe talk to your pastor to talk to her. So she can allow you get a job to support yourself!! I pray it will be well with you ijn... Amen!!
You've said it all..
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Young lady poster... God is still on his throne, preparing you for something big....dats all I can say
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DeleteSame Girl has said it all. Just be fervent with your prayers and keep hustling. God will turn your mockery into celebrations for you and you will have cause to rejoice. Never give up and pls erase the suicidal thought off your mind.
ReplyDeleteSuicide attempt should be erased off your mind. Things can really get worse at home that may want you to think otherwise, but never give up and keep living your dream. If you ever have passion to build the talent in you, dream to be pursuit, you will never give in to quit all of these. It is just a phase, stay strong and new chapter will begin to open for you.
ReplyDeleteSuicidal is never an option my pretty angel.Life is hard you know.The world doesnt owe u dime u have to fight for it. I know if you really want to commit suicide you won't be telling us now.. Part of you want to remain alive and achieve your goal. if you succeed in taking your life - there are no second chances and nobody really knows what will happen when they die. It may be difficult to take in at this moment in time but the feelings you have at the moment may be temporary - you may not always feel like this. There are people who have been in the exactly the same position as you and have somehow found the strength to come out of it and have gone on to find happiness and fulfilment in life and to be able to cope with life more easily, they have found alternatives to suicide and were glad that they did not take their own life. Be prayerful and MPN fam are willing to help you anytime / anyday.. IT IS WELL
ReplyDeleteMy dear, don't make suicide an option. People have gone through worse. All this things happen so that later in life when you reflect on your life, you'll have more reasons to praise God. Its all a phase, trust me it would pass. Some mums tho... *sigh* my best advice, go squat with a friend in the hostel (if you have one) learn to start making decisions on your own now. This is your life my dear. After moving to the hostel,get a part time job. Since you're getting no assistance from your parents, just think of yourself as an orphan and work like you have no one to fall back to. God will guide you dear, suicide is just not an option.
ReplyDeleteDear poster my heart goes out to u, wat more can I say. Just trust in d Lord n he wunt put u to shame, but pls never ever consider suicide. May God see u tru, kisses n hugs frm my heart!
ReplyDeleteDear Poster, am sure right now you must have heaved some kind of relief, knowing that such happens to other people too and not only in your family.. Everyone has told you suicide is not an option and am sure you will agree with us.. The only one you share with and knows all about you, will always keep it to himself. He is the best friend anyone can ever have. He is support, strength and faith, which shall never fade. He is God, and God is around. Smile for it is well with you...!!!!
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ReplyDeleteIf dey tel u d name na u go come bash me out n 4get d advice. Its safer 4 her 2 b anon.
DeleteYour story is one sided and touching.
ReplyDeleteWell maybe I can't relate cos I didn't have a mother like yours
But I can relate to your been depressed and suicidal and worst still the perpetrator was the woman who birth you.
That been said still nobody can hurt you without your permission
Like every comments here please do not give in to the temptation of committing suicide
Raw gold will only come out shining as Gold after it had pass through fire.
Don't let this little fire that you are passing through make you give up.
Please don't give up at the edge of your testimony.
Am waiting to read your testimony very soon
Awww this is so sad! I really do hope u find comfort soon ; ( i've also had my share on stuffs like this but God has been faithful.
ReplyDeleteIt is well poster!
ReplyDeleteMy dear...I dnt know what to say but the family has said it all..Just be strong....
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