Blogger's Diary - AN ODE TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE(The realest thing I ever wrote)

Its 10am,2nd june, 2012 and I'm lying on my bed,tears streaming down a face filled with features which reminds me of you.In less than two hours, it would be one year since I got that call which shattered my world. A world you were part of,a world you built,a world incomplete without you.

You were my first love,the first man who loved me unconditionally, who loved me subtly,and who cared for me passionately. I danced with you, I cried with you, you felt the pain of my first heartbreak and the arrogance that came with my juvenile years. I'm glad I was a source of joy to you,during your last years on earth, but i still wish i did more. Maybe if you had given me a sign that you were going to leave soon,i would have done better. Maybe , just maybe i would have prayed harder.

Master of words,great literary icon,churning out great master pieces, impacting knowledge on others for decades. 

You did this relentlessly,products of your tutoring scattered around the world, seated in high places. I recall burning the midnight oil while you broke down the very complicated poem "Ode to a grecian Urn",as I prepared for my SSCE Literature exams..(Of course I passed with a distinction)..Though stern at times, it has helped shaped me into the woman i am now.

I know you are in heaven but i cant help but wonder what your doing,are you resting?Are you wide awake?Are you still aware of the turmoil taking place on earth? Or are you oblivious to all these including my pain?Do you know your 5 kids are still hanging on? Do you know your irreplaceable to them? Do you know all the promises made by  most (friends and foes alike)during your burial haven't been kept? Do you know politics hasn't changed, and its raining season now?

Though I see you in my dreams,though I feel your presence in my sleep,I pray your resting in a place where your oblivious to the happenings of this cruel world. I pray you don't see my tears when I yearn for you. I pray all you see are my smiles,  the joy and laughter on the faces of my friends when i tell them your funny jokes.

I felt you on the 11th of February when the car I was driving lost control on the 3rd mainland bridge, I heard you beg God to give me one more chance because there was still so much I had to do. I knew you were there because you had visited the night before in my dreams and saved me as I fell from a valley. So what a hypocrite I am,when I say "I hope your blind to the world",because daddy, if you leave me alone,I wouldn't survive it. 

  So as I lay here writing this letter to you,i hope it reaches you in time . I'm sending it via your favorite angel Gabriel .I want to say we (your kids)love you, we thank you for being the best dad in the world,we  thank you for all the sacrifices and as i once told you, all your sacrifices and pain wont be in vain, i'm only human but i know i'll make you proud.If I could do this again, i'll choose you to be my only beloved father.

So, Adieu daddy, until we meet again,you'll remain forever green in my thoughts and prayers.

HAPPY ONE YEAR REMEMBRANCE DADDY

Your beloved daughter

Emeh Achanga