Playboy Mansion was scary and made me miserable-Holly Madison

We were used to seeing them having fun on their hit series,Girls of the Playboy Mansion,however,Hugh Hefner's number one girlfriend at the time,Holly Madison says living in the Playboy Mansion was "a lot scarier" than she'd expected.  She first moved in with Hugh Hefner and his numerous girlfriends when she was just 21-years-old and didn't move out until she was 28 .

Now, 35,she told Us Weekly

  "The first night I had spent at the Playboy Mansion was definitely very eye-opening. It was clear that there was certain things expected of you. It was clear that there was a definite routine going on, and it was very bizarre. It definitely wasn't what I expected it to be, it was a lot scarier.I don't know what people think goes on in the bedroom, but it was always very much the same, and intimidating, and not something that I liked. It was a miserable part of my life."

  "There was a lot of politics inside the mansion. Very catty, very competitive, a kind of scary place to live. He just encourage it because it made him feel special. Looking back, I see that he was the orchestrator of the whole thing."

On sex, she said she had to "fake" everything.

"When I think about it now, it's almost comical. Every red-blooded American male has no doubt fantasized about what went on in Hugh Hefner's bedroom with his harem of blond bombshells. The answer? Not a whole lot,""My turn was over just as quickly as it had started." There was zero intimacy and no kissing.