Blogger's Diary-An Ode to the Man I Love (Atemkeng Achanga)

‎Dear Atemkeng Achanga 

‎The man after God's own heart 

It's been four years since I last heard your voice. ‎

These days,I make do with the gust of the wind 

The rustling of the trees‎

The thoughts ‎of what would have been 

‎And your whole life ahead not to be seen

Do you know I miss you?

Do you know no one comes close to you? 

Do you know you are irreplaceable? 

And when I speak of you,they say it's a fable

The 3rd of June was the 4th year anniversary of your death ‎

And oh! How I wept

Because I realised it's like you never left.

Living with this burden of your death

fastened to me like a seat belt 

Rummaging through my heart with each breath ..

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Do you know you have your first grandchild now? 

Yes your 3rd daughter is a mother wow!

Leli found love in a distant land 

Married to a Cameroonian man

Do you know we are doing fine? 

Oh yes! Your friends and family left us behind 

But you told us they would didn't you ?

But don't worry about that,we cool

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Anyi is a big makeup artist now

Her art leaves her clients wowed

Mafua is studying English now

I know you'll be proud of how her life turned out ‎

Atem is also in school now ‎

Your only son is a big boy now 

He works so hard sometimes I cry 

But always calls to make me smile‎

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Do you smile in heaven? 

Or is your heart sorrow-laden?

Do you see my triumphs?

Walk with me on my lonely sojourn?‎

Do you still get angry when I slather my face in make up?‎
Or now realize it's ok for ladies to cake up

Do you still wish you and my momma made up?

Or you ok with the break up?‎

Are you restless over dreams unfulfilled? ‎

Or at peace ‎in a land that's honey filled 

Are you proud of how far I've come?‎

My accomplishments sound up in heaven like a gong?

Are you angry I became a blogger?
Or support my new path with hopes i get further 

Still nurse hopes I'd become a lawyer?
5 years in school and further
Seeing me in suits so dapper
Was what you wanted as a father

Do you know I'm independent now?

I even got haters wondering how!‎
Even when I feel so down
the thought of that makes me smile some how

Do you know there's sorrow in the land 

Boko haram's killing now

Sometimes I wish I could call you up

And talk about about how thing's messed up.‎

It's been long I saw you in my dreams 
yes like a decade it seems

Sometimes all I need is a beam

A sign to show you still with me 

I know I complained about your frequent visits 

I went to church on nightly vigils

Begging for you to let me go

I didn't want you to see my sorrow 

Today is father's day 

Can you tell me about your day?

Tell me you sitting on the throne 

In a land ‎where there's honey and gold 

So visit me in my dreams tonight 

Oh Please don't put up a fight 

I want to know your still with me

Daddy please don't let me be! ‎

Happy Father's Day 

Your Daughter Emeh Achanga ‎
PS:This is my first poem ever dad..Hope it meets your standards prof (wink)

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