'I might never be able to afford it, but I know, truly and deeply, I won't regret it if I ever can,' she said
Chloe, 58, from Salt Lake City, Utah, suffers from a rare condition called Body Integrity Identity Disorder, or BIID. Sufferers do not accept one of their own limb or limbs and seek to amputate them or become paraplegic
Some experts believe it is caused by a neurological fault, in which the brain's mapping system cannot see a certain body part.The Cambridge graduate believes both of her legs do not belong to her and dreams of being paralysed from the waist down.
'Something in my brain tells me my legs are not supposed to work,' she said. 'Having any sensation in them just feels wrong.'
For years she bandaged herself secretly, but now lives openly with her condition despite facing intolerance, insults, and sometimes online threats.Chloe first realised she was different at the age of four, after visiting her Aunt Olive, who was using leg braces after a bike accident.
'I wanted them too,' she said. 'I wondered why I wasn't born needing them and felt something was wrong with me because I didn't have them.'
At the age of nine, Chloe even took action and pedalled her bike off a four-foot high acting stage on Hampstead Heath, north London, landing on her neck.
'I only wanted to stop my legs working but could have broken my neck or died,' she added.
From then on, Chloe lived out her fantasy in secret, pretending to be disabled when alone, playing risky sports and climbing trees in the hope of hurting her legs.
Now, as an adult, Chloe enjoys the excitement of downhill skiing and the possibility she might fall and suffer serious leg fractures.
'I ski extremely fast, and aim for the most dangerous runs .'Doing any activity that brings a chance of me becoming paraplegic gives me a sense of relief from the anxiety caused by the BIID.'My friends and family can get a little worried about me skiing, as they know I ski very aggressively and they know that in the back of my mind I actually want to get paralysed.' I can't afford to convert my home for disabled access so I just use the chair as much as I can,' she said.
She fantasises about having a car crash without hurting anyone else just so she can damage her own legs.
'Any time when I'm driving I sort of conjure up accident scenarios in my mind where I will become paraplegic,' she admitted.
Daily Mail
hmmmm na wa oh which one kon be Body Integrity Identity Disorder??? If person just be mumu wey no get sense , oyinbo go call am sickness
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ReplyDeleteMe I get stealing identity disorder. If na oyibo I be dem no go call am tif na sickness
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ReplyDeleteWe're u just released from a mental hospital?
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ReplyDeletesome people are whiching they had their leg back frm accident dey surrive..and some1 else is which to loose their..These World is really ironical, i pray i dont become part of it *15yrs Miss p yungest comentator*
ReplyDeleteWow, interesting. I think she needs a psychiatrist to evaluate her mentally. Funny, those with legs don't want them while those without seek Miracles in churches. Irony of life...life's beautiful
ReplyDeleteWhat does she need a doctor for? Should start by jumping from a sky scraper an gues what? She will loose both hands too idiot
ReplyDeleteLet her come and try it in Nigeria she will beg tire nobody wilL pity her
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